Alone is an underrated word Do we know what it means? Have we felt its sting to the fullest? Have we walked in the dark groping for candles or matches or a cell-phone glare? Have you lived if? I have Or maybe I haven’t In its depths, there is always a glimmer In its talons, … Continue reading Alone
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On Reminiscing
Some nights revolve around the past… It’s not that it started out that way but it ends in reminiscence of days gone by and memories you treasure. Is it good or bad? I don’t know the answer. Enlighten me, people of Earth. When reminiscence leads to wonder about what could have been it can lead … Continue reading On Reminiscing
Stupid math
When one and one don't equal two anymore and the equation lays heavy because you know the truth... That is me and you.
Thunder
I was a human once. I lived, I breathed, I knew who I was. It was somewhere between where husband number one left me a puddle on the floor and husband number two decided I wasn't enough. Maybe I'm not. Maybe they're not. I'm not qualified to say. Tonight, I'm thinking I am beyond expectations … Continue reading Thunder
Feminism, Covid, and Reality
I consider myself a strong woman. I do what needs to be done. If I don't know how, I figure it out. If I can't figure it out, I figure that out. I'm in a mood tonight. I'm sure it's primarily caused by the fact that I tested positive for Covid yesterday. I'm fine. It's … Continue reading Feminism, Covid, and Reality
At the end of “us”
See me in "forever". Don't let the clock run out on us. Find me in this moment when the trust dissolves into dust. If I am breathing let me feel. If I'm lost, find a light. But you and I and forever may be gone without a fight. Because you've given up and I am … Continue reading At the end of “us”
Optimism
I don't want to be here. This place, my soul hates, this void of existence....but here I am. People talk from the outside about who I should be, who I am, the next moves I should make in this existence that is my life. What do they know? This place is a place of pain, … Continue reading Optimism
Good Math
In the span of time when today and tomorrow collide, I wait for you Suddenly the dim is clear, the dawn no longer impending The new day is a promise of hope and life All in the space where you are mine Where one is one the sum of two and we are us together … Continue reading Good Math
Signs, Confusion and Forever
I confess, I've been known to take a shortcut or two. Time is a precious commodity in my life. Somehow, I'm convinced that I have less of it than most people, so occasionally, I improvise. Usually, it gets the job done so I don't sweat the small stuff. Still, there are suggested uses provided by … Continue reading Signs, Confusion and Forever
Adoration
I'm sitting in a quiet room, baby in my arms. Soft and warm, nuzzled tightly to my chest breathing in. Tiny sighs and squeaks eek out occasionally as lips move to reflexive smile or the impulse to nurse though his mouth is empty. He sleeps and I adore him. My husband lies across the room still, … Continue reading Adoration