It's been a week! I got sick, probably just a severe cold or flu, but it banned me from humanity in the current Covid climate, despite my negative test results. So I tried to rest, amidst my endless household to do list and everything I fight for and against on the daily. I often wonder … Continue reading Do you ever sit and stare?
Today marks 365 days around the sun since you joined us here. I remember the call. You were gone. I miss you more than I can say but I know it's okay (I swear I didn't mean for that to rhyme). In my heart, I see clearly the serenity of the place you last walked. … Continue reading 365 Days
I remember six. What it was to go down to my grandfather's basement and sing at the top of my lungs while he played guitar. I remember chords and burning and the life and longing that only comes with a great song. I remember faces beaming and proud looks screaming "legacy". I remember the look … Continue reading On Six and Legacy
Do you ever think about who's out there listening I write this blog, throw these ideas into the air But I'll never know who hears them. Who sees beyond the void... I think of the words that have changed my life The moments I stumbled across something that shook me to my soul. There are … Continue reading Who are you?
The dark can be so daunting The light can seem so dim Still, from heaven, you are calling. Can I hear your voice again? No fear in death or life, though all of hell presses in Your voice, the roaring lion, shatters mountains and hangs on the wind. Still small voice, speak to me. I'm … Continue reading Listening
Tomorrow is a glass half full. Tonight is a memory. I exhale with baited breath to find myself on my knees. And I know it's "worth it" if I die another day. And I know there's purpose in the things I choose not to say. But it was you and me against the world until … Continue reading Missing
I sit in silence for hours and days while the world passes by unhinged. I watch the clock dismantle and in haze because time no longer makes sense. Then I breathe and remember that today will be gone in an instant and tomorrow will either repeat the same or be glorious. Tonight I choose the … Continue reading Unhinged
I don't want to be here. This place, my soul hates, this void of existence....but here I am. People talk from the outside about who I should be, who I am, the next moves I should make in this existence that is my life. What do they know? This place is a place of pain, … Continue reading Optimism
It's been a hard year. It seems like we've all said that so many times now, it's become an anecdote. The reasons for its sting are different for everyone. I wish for me, it were simply the work of a pandemic and its' resulting madness, but it's been so much more than that. The darkness … Continue reading Fear is a Terrible Driver
When the light turns on, the darkness becomes inconsequential. The glory appears in the brilliance of the light. It's all in your perspective. I confess, I've been lost in the shadows for awhile. I can't explain why I let the light hide. I can't explain why I couldn't find it, but I lost track of … Continue reading The Light